I’ve been having a different dream this month, as I’ve documented. I think it’s finished now. As I did a month ago, I’m going to recap the entire thing here.
I “wake up”, in the dream, in a panic. I look out from beneath a great shadow to see Phobos rushing towards me, meaning to devour me. The Cosmos around me are bickering about something I’m not aware of, something Phobos decided to do something about. I have no time to think, I am overcome with fear as Phobos swallows me and forces me into the darkest void I’ve ever felt. The darkness crushes my body but the moon can’t take the pressure and breaks apart and the darkness lifts away.
All I can see is the milky way off in the distance, too far now for me to return to. With the heavy burden of knowing everything I’ve ever known is too far from my reach, I resolve myself to travel on to new territory. Again, I am swallowed by darkness. A different kind from before. Instead of overwhelming fear and despair, it is more of a calm solitude. I drift for hours with nothing in sight. In time I see a small light ahead of me. I watch it grow over time until it’s massive size and misshapen form are clear. I am in its path and, though I try, it is too large to avoid. As it gets even closer, I swear I feel Malice emanating from it. As if this asteroid wants me dead.
The time comes for our paths to meet. The asteroid crushes me but by some celestial miracle, I survive. The impact sends me spinning of my original course for an incalculable amount of time and I become disoriented and lost in the eternal darkness. By the time I can gather my senses back I can’t even see the asteroid. I am left floating again, with no direction.
Then I wake up, feeling just as lost as I do at the end of the dream.
Steven Caul, with fear, signing off-